La mamografia y el Camino que Elegi
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Les cuento; porque ya tengo mas de 50 años (con juventud eterna y hermosa)me recomendaron los doctores hacerme una serie de examenes fisicos para detectar a tiempo enfermedades severas. Bueno, yo como que no creo mucho en eso pues porque ya sabemos la tematica de los seguros medicos y todo la problematica envuelta, pero me convencio mi amiga Tanya cuando escribio un articulo de los obstaculos a los que se enfrenta las personas que no tiene seguro medico en este pais. Entonces como yo tengo el privilegio de tener seguro medico, senti que deberia aprovechar ese privilegio y seguir las intrucciones del doctor.
Bueno para no hacer la historia larga, me someti a las agujas que pinchan y sacan sangre y a las maquinas de avanzada tecnologia que hacen esos examenes con nombres dificiles de pronunciar,tales como, colonoscopia, endoscopia, y mamogramas. A pesar de lo avanzado de la tecnologia todos tienen un nivel de incomodidad a los que tambien hay que someterse. Pero bueno, alli estaba yo tratando de gozar de mi privilegio de tener un seguro medico y a la vez de alguna manera cuidar mi salud.
Me hice el mamograma y estaba esperando por el resultado. La secretaria de mi doctor me llamo y me dijo que no faltara a la cita para recibir el resultado del mamograma porque era importante y que llamara para cualquier duda. Uppss!! Ummm!! Que raro? me dije, pero espere sabiendo que algo andaba mal pues la secretaria solo llama para recordar la cita el dia antes no una semana antes. Como me sospeche, el doctor muy preocupado me dijo que en el seno derecho tenia una masa que no debia de estar alli y que habia que hacer una biopsia. Mi doctor es todo amor y estaba mas preocupado que yo y se sorprendio de mi fortaleza al recibir la noticia, pues me conto que cada vez que da una noticia como esta a las mujeres la mayoria de las veces se ponen en crisis. Yo opte por mantener la calma aunque si me preocupe. Decidi no llamar la atencion de la tragedia solo dejandole saber a las personas necesarias acerca de mi situacion. Muchos se preocuparon y les note la preocupacion en la cara pero me hice de la vista larga y trate de transmitirle mi paz. Al principio decidi no decirle a mis hijos hasta esperar el resultado de la biopsia, porque pense que no habia porque alarmarlos. Un dia antes de la biopsia decidi decirles pues me di cuenta que es muy tipico que nosotras las madres siempre tratamos de evitarles dolor a nuestros hijos para que no sufran, y muchas veces le quitamos la oportunidad de aprender y en este caso pense que seria una forma mas de crecimiento espiritual para ellos y darles la oportunidad de estar alli para mi y a la misma vez recibir el apoyo que necesitaba.
Tambien convoque una serie de personas espirituales para que me ayudaran con la oracion y la energia positiva. Fui a visitar a mi padrino, un Santero lleno de amor, paz y mucha sabiduria. El me hizo las bendiciones necesarias para la tradicion y me aseguro en ese seno no habia nada malo y que yo hiba a estar bien. Depues hice un trio de tres personas muy importantes en mi vida mi amiga La Reverenda Barbara Dominic que habla con los angeles , mis maestros y mentores los shamanes mexicanos Irma Caceres y Manuel Peralta que emanan luz y sabiduria de el Universo y nuestra Madre Tierra. Los llame por telefono y les envie un mensaje por correo electronico para que me enviaran energia positiva, rezaran, cantaran, sonaran los tambores e invocaran angeles celestiales y espiritus de nuestra madre tierra para mi fortaleza emocional y mi sanacion fisica. La respuesta inmediata: Barbara sugirio que invocara al angel San Rafael que sana, Irma que soltara las cosas que me estaban hacienda daño emocional y obediente segui los consejos. Despues vinieron desvelos y pensamientos de preocupacion como que pasaria si estaba enferma? Como lo hiba a tomar mi familia? Podria seguir trabajando? Una tragedia mas en mi vida? Pero a todas esas preocupaciones les dije que no, rotundamente, exactamente en el mismo momento en que llegaban. Me dedique a pensar en mi fortaleza como persona y que fuera lo que fuera yo tengo la fuerza para enfrentar lo que venga, asi como e enfrentado tantas cosas dificiles en mi vida. Muchas veces me dedique a darles animo a los que tomaron la noticia con miedo porque me quieren mucho, y no quieren que nada malo me pase.
El dia de la Biopsia mi hija y mi cuñado me acompañaron al lugar. Espere sentada con mi hija haciendo chistes hasta el momento que me llamaron para comenzar el procedimiento de la biopsia. Mi hija se que quedo en la sala de espera y parecia tranquila, yo camine con la enfermera que me dijo” Ay! Que rico tu hueles, no te pusiste desodorante ni perfume, verdad?” Yo le dije que no pero me sorprendi porque yo tambien senti un rico olor al entrar al cuarto. Ella con mucho amor me preparo con la bata y me explico todo lo que debia saber acerca del procedimineto, despues me dejo en la cama esperando que viniera la doctora que haria la biopsia.
Mientras esperaba decidi seguir los consejos de Barbara e invocar a San Rafael por mi ayuda. Cerre los ojos respire profundamente unas cuantas veces y pedi mentalmente a San Rafael que se hiciera presente. En un momento vi mentalmente como unas alas enormes y blancas se apoderaban de casi todo el cuarto y se posaban a mi lado izquierdo. Eran tan reales que podia apreciar el color blanco con un poco de amarillento claro y la impotente presencia de un ser fuerte grande y lleno de amor. Despues, pude sentir como otros angeles trataban de entrar en el cuarto y se manejaban por tomar un espacio atras de mi. Se escuchaba en mis oidos como pajaros. Era como si dijeran, “oye echate para alla, yo tambien quiero estar con ella”. Tambien senti que mientras se acomodaban, algunos de ellos se tuvieron que ir antes de la biopsia porque los llamaban y se tenian que ir con tristeza. Despues vi el rojo vivo de las vestiduras de San Miguel, mi angel guardian, que se posaba a mi derecha y juntaba sus alas con las de San Rafael, Su presencia se sentia imponente y como que estaba orgulloso y con autoridad diciendo, “Yo tengo que estar aqui tambien, ella es mi fiel devota umm!” Todo se apaciguo por un momento y de repente senti como en frente de mi al nivel de mi cabeza habia una mujer sentada en un trono. Era la virgen Maria vestida de azul y blanco como la conoci cuando era niña. Despues se fue tranformando en la Virgen de la Guadalupe, en la Virgen de la Providencia, la Virgen de la Caridad del Cobre, Yemaya, Oshun, la virgen negra, Nuestra Cenora de Czestochowa, la que conoci a travez de mi padrino, Lakshmi la Diosa indu, y al final se transformo en una hermosa diosa llena de luz y belleza. Mientras la disfrutaba entro la doctora con la enfermera y pensaron que dormia.
Comenzo el procediemiento y trate de relajarme depues de haber sentido el dolor de la agujas. Cada vez que la doctora cortaba con su aparato que ni se como se llama, me preguntaba como yo estaba. La primera vez dije “ si, estoy bien”. La segunda vez que corto y me pregunto si estaba bien mi voz dijo, “si , estoy bien”, pero note con asombro que no era mi voz. Era una voz fuerte e imponente y hasta me dio pena con la doctora que fuera a pensar que yo estaba molesta con ella. Hoy se que era la voz de el Angel San Rafael la que le dijo, “Si, esta bien”.
Cuando todo termino la enfermera se quedo a ayudarme a vestir y a recuperarme . Le conte que los angeles estaban en el cuarto y se alegro de saber que yo estaba positiva y me prometio que ella misma seria la que me diera el resultado de la biopsia si asi yo lo deseaba. Le dije que si. Cuando sali a encontrar a mi hija en la sala de espera ella me dijo que no sabia porque estuvo todo el tiempo temblando e invocando los angeles, pero no sabia porque temblaba. Cuando le conte mi vision, se rio conmigo y lo entendio todo. Ella tambien estaba sintiendo la presencia de los angeles. Despues de la biopsia siguieron dias de preocupacion y pensamientos negativos a los cuales mandaba a volar confiando en que San Rafael y San Miguel hicieron su trabajo y que si por alguna razon tenia que pasar por el camino de la enfermedad yo ya sabia que los angeles y mucha gente linda que me quiere me acompanarian.
El resultado fue negativo para cualquier condicion de peligro o cancerosa. Estare en observacion para seguimiento con mi doctor e intrucciones de cuidado a largo plazo. Lo que vivi fue una experiencia muy fortalecedora y me ayudo a crecer mas espiritualmente. Y si el resultado hubiese sido positivo?? Se que te preguntaras. Pues definitivamente creo que hubiese elegido el mismo camino por el que comenze, el camino spiritual y de amor. Mi experiencia tal vez no se parece en nada a la tuya, y se que todos tenemos diferentes creencias. No espero que crean que soy una persona religiosa, porque lo fui pero ya no lo soy. En esta parte de mi vida soy una persona espiritual y nada mas, y con mi relato quiero llevar mi experiencia hasta ti, esperando que te sirva de algo y hayas aprendido algo nuevo.
Mi consejo para ti es:
- Primero: si tienes la posibilidad de hacerte una mamografia o algun otro examen fisico necesario para mantener tu salud fisica, hazlo. “Es mejor prevenir que tener que lamentar” es un dicho que decian las abuelas.
- Segundo: toma las cosas negativas con sabor positivo, no te metas en la cueva oscura, busca luz en donde la puedes encontrar con personas que te daran fortaleza.
- Tercero:Usa tu espiritualidad para encontrar el poder para tomar decisiones positivas.
- Cuarto: como predicamos en Creadores de Sueños “tranforma tus experiencias en fortaleza y sabiduria”
Con mucho amor sanativo traido por el Angel San Rafael a mi y para ti”
Daliaflor “ Espiritu del Bosque”
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The Mammogram and t he path I decided to follow
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Due to my age (more than 50 beautiful and young) my doctor recommended a series of physical exams for the detection on time of different illnesses. I am a little resistant to follow all those physical exams due to age in part because of all the problematic with health insurances in this country. However, I got to read an article from my friend Tanya Torres in which she was letting us know of the struggles for people that does not have health insurance in this country. I felt that I should take advantage of my privilege of having health insurance so I proceeded to make the appointments and followed the recommendations from my doctor.
I started with all those exams with names difficult for me to pronounce, like colonoscopy, endoscopy and a mammogram. Even with the advance of the technology, all of them still have some level of uncomfortable procedure that I had to accept. After the mammogram my doctor’s secretary called to encourage me to attend to the appointment for the results of the mammogram. I started to have some concerns and preoccupation about that call because she usually calls to remind the patients their appointments the day before the appointment no a week before the appointment. I knew something was not right, but I decided to wait and maintain the calm.
When I went to see the doctor, he confirmed my preoccupation and told me that the exam detected a lump in my right breast and that there was the need to do a biopsy to find out if it was malign or benign. Those terms “malign or benign” were kind of uncomfortable for me and I did not want to even learn to pronounce them and took both of them out from my vocabulary for a while. My doctor was surprised of my strength and told me that it is difficult for him to give this kind of results to women because they usually expect a crisis after. I made the decision not to call the tragedy to my side and started to tell people that were in need to know about the results in a calm way. Many of them were preoccupied and I noticed, but I tried not to pay attention to their reactions and help them to move into the place of hope and peace. I also decided not to tell my children because I did not want to alarm them, but a day before after the biopsy I analyzed the decision I made, and concluded that many mothers try to avoid suffering from our children and is alright, but many times we are taking away the opportunity for them to grow. Then I decided to tell them to give them the opportunity to confront a difficult situation and learn, and at the same time to get the support I deserve and needed from them.
I also called and send messages to three important people in my life. I wanted them to send me positive energy and prayers. First I went to visit my godfather, a Santero full of love wisdom and peace. He did all the rituals and blessings of the tradition and told me that I was fine and there was nothing wrong with my breast and that everything was going to be alright for me. Then I decided to call my friend, Reverend Barbara Dominic who work with angels and my two teachers and mentors for the shamanic healing, the shamans Irma Caceres and Manuel Peralta. I want them to pray, sing, play the drums and chant for the celestial angels and other earth spirits for my emotional strength and my physical healing. Barbara response was to call Saint Rafael for healing and Irma said to let go anything that I was holding in my chest that might be harming me in some way. She meant sad feelings, or sad memories from the past. I followed the advices immediately. After that many nights with poor sleeping and negative thoughts started to come to me. I started asking myself questions like; what is going to happen if I am sick? How my family is going to react to it? I was going to be able to work? Is there was another tragedy in my life? But I reject all of those thoughts immediately when they came, not giving them space in my mind. I concentrate in my strengths and kept myself thinking that I was ready for anything and in the same way I dealed in the past in difficult situations I was going to have the strength to deal now if that was the case. Many times I have to give strength to those that were concerned about my health.
The day of the Biopsy, my daughter and my brother in law went with me to the clinic. While my daughter and I were waiting we started to make jokes and to talk about different things until the nurse came to the waiting room and called me. My daughter seemed calm and I left with the nurse that told me that I smelled good and if I use deodorant or perfume before coming to the clinic because I will have to remove it. I answered her that I did not use any deodorant or perfume, but I was surprised because I also smell a pleasant aroma when I entered the room. She proceeded to help me to prepare for the biopsy explaining all the details I needed to know. Then she told me to wait for the doctor.
While I was waiting for the doctor to come to start the biopsy I decided to follow Barbara’s advice. I closed my eyes, breath in an out and mentally asked St. Raphael to come by my side. After a moment I started to have a vision of two big wings taking space in the room and the presence of a powerful and lovely being was standing to my left side of the bed. The vision was so real that I was able to perceive the softness of the wings and appreciate the white bone color of the feathers. After that, I was feeling the presence of other angels that were trying to fit in the room to be present for me. I heard a noise like when birds are flying around together and chirping. It was like they were saying” Hey, make some room I want to be here with her too! Then I started to see an angel dressed in red that was taking space near me to my right, and recognized him as my angel St. Michael. His presence was full of strength and he seemed proud of being there. It seemed to me that he was saying “I need to be here she is one of my fervent followers! The environment was calmed, and one of the sudden I was seeing in the vision a beautiful throne and sitting down on the throne there was a woman. She was the Virgin Mary dressed in blue and white like I used to know her during my childhood. Then, she started to transform herself into the Virgin of Guadalupe, the Virgin of the Providencia,from Puerto Rico, the Virgin de la Caridad del Cobre from Cuba , Yemaya, Oshun, the African goddesses, the Black Madonna, the virgin of Czestochowa, which I met through my godfather, Lakshmi the Hindu Goddess, and at the end in one beautiful goddess full of beauty and light. While I was enjoying her beauty the doctor entered the room and she thought I was sleeping.
The doctor started the procedure and after feeling the pain the needles were causing me I tried to find some way to relax myself. While she was getting examples of my breast tissue, she also was asking me if I was fine. I said, “Yes, I am fine”, the first time she asked me. Then I said “Yes” again the second time, but this time my voice tone was not mine. I heard a strong voice and I was concerned that the doctor was thinking that I was mad with her. Now I think it was the voice of St. Rafael telling her I was alright. When everything was done the nurse helped me to dress and told me all the instructions to follow after the biopsy. I told her about the presence of the angels and she was happy that I was positive and promised me to give me the results of the biopsy herself. When I went out to find my daughter in the waiting room she told me she was praying and her body was shaking, but she did not knew why she was shaking. When I told her my experience with the angels she laughed because she understood then, why her body was shaking, she was feeling the presence of the angels too. After the biopsy more negatives thoughts came to my mind, but I rejected them immediately, thinking that the same way I overcame other difficult times in my life trhe same way I was going to be able to accepted and cope with this one too. I also knew that there was a lot of people supporting me and that make me feel good.
The results were negative for any illness, now I am following the doctor’s instructions. This experience helped me to grow spiritually in many ways. Maybe your question will be, What about if the results were positive for an illness? I would do the same thing I did; I will keep myself focus in my spirituality and love to myself. My experience maybe is different than yours. I am not a religious person even thought I was in my past. Now,I am a spiritual person and with this story of my life I want to give something to think about and to use it if is helpful to you.
My message to you is:
- If you have the resources or health insurance to do the mammogram or any other important test to maintain your health stability, do it!
- Put some positive flavor to negative situations. Always look to the bright side and look for people that will help you to find that light.
- Use your spirituality to find the power you need to make positive decisions.
- Like I said in Creadores de Sueños (Creating your Dreams) “Transform your Experiences into Strength and Wisdom”.
With a lot of healing love from St. Raphael, for me and you,
Daliaflor “Spirit of the Forest”
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